The new detachment

Sometimes in life it is necessary to detach from a situation. Al-anon first introduced me to this concept; of help through distance. The recognition that that gut feeling of helplessness is best served by sometimes acting helpless. Pushing those you want to hold the closest away so that they too can see the distance.

Pittsburgh musings

Goddamn I love this town.

Photography

Things change when you look
through the lens of a
single lens reflex
and bring a beautiful scenic
scene into a metered view finder

And part of the kick
of staring at this scene is
observing those in and out the
frame through a squinted
eye, trying to catch a glimpse
inside of you
and inside that frame.

nobility.

There is nothing noble about being rich.
There really isn't anything particularly noble
about being poor,
either.

and yet i chase and seek the nobility
among the rich and the poor among us

the rich purity we each bear and
can occasionally radiate through
this societal shroud that
envelopes the inner us.

There isn't anything noble about being rich.
and there isn't anything particularly noble about
being poor.

and sometimes those with the most
have the least
while those with the least
have the most.

the grass is always greener
on the manicured lawn.

the grass is always greener.
in the junkyard.

there isn't anythign noble about being rich.
there isn't anything noble about being poor.

we envy the everything for having it.
we envy the lacking for not.

the old definition of having what you want
not wanting what you have

but having it all you can't want a thing
and wanting it all you cant have a thing

our daily juxtaposition of
want vs need
have vs have not

our daily struggle.

let's re-invent the wheel.

salad bar midget

I stared longingly ready for a bowl of
potato soup and lifted my foot
in anticipation of the
forward motion that would
carry me closer to a bowl of
potatoes and bacon bits and
creamy broth

and I spotted the salad bar girl
doing salad bar things in the
soup area adjacent to the salad bar

and i noticed she was a midget and my
foot hovered a non perceptible
inch off the ground as every muscle in my
body tightened and i froze

scared shitless by this weird perfectly
normal salad bar eat N park midget.

qwerty

what is is observational from my day
i often wonder sitting here
in front of keys
in front of an empty page

i think through the day
and i can remember only
a hangover
liquid
and another great sense
of fluid
well-lubricated
well-being.

FUCK

FUCK THAT MOTHERFUCKER ILL KILL THAT MOTHERFUCKER
said the man in the black shirt
cowboy boots
cowboy hat.

he seemed so angry and I wondered at what.
I was so happy he was on the other side of the street.

I sipped my beer and stared at my book
avoided the anger and
dreaded conflict
considering how good my day
was going.

so far.